six years ago i discovered i was pregnant whilst in an abusive relationship. i opted for an abortion. the idea that my life would be tied to the fathers filled me with fear.

i had a medical abortion when i was 9 weeks and 1 day pregnant. i was a single mother of two children already and in an unstable relationship. when we found out i was pregnant, he became even more distant and still. i knew i wouldn’t be able to fairly raise another child on my own without having a traumatic effect on my other children.

we'd decided a year ago that i would stop birth control because of difficulties with side effects, and in combination with our usual withdrawal method and ovulation tracking, we thought we'd be fine.

i had a suction abortion at 4.5 weeks pregnant yesterday.
i read lots of stories hoping to find more details than i did about the process itself,
so i've decided to write out my experience for other woman who are scared about their first abortion.

when i was in college, i was in a serious relationship and sexually active with my now-husband, then-boyfriend.

we had just gotten married in june when in september i found out i was pregnant.